Good Traits: Not Good At All Times?
- Jun 1, 2017
- 2 min read
When we hear the word good traits or good characteristics, all that comes to my mind are good. Of course, it's good but sometimes those traits that we have are not good if we ate by those traits. Well, it is just my opinion. I don't know if you will agree with me.
You can ask me Why? I can say this kind of thing because of my own experience. I don't know if it still good or I am an OCD person, just like what my sisters told me who I am. Ever since I was a child, I want everything organized. Of course, I am like the other child back then, but this trait of mine is growing and growing until now. I am easily irritated when everything surrounds me are messy. And it is hard for me to control this kind of traits. I am a type of person that don't want to be in a messy place. I want everything are organized/arranged. I want everything surrounds me are clean, in a good position/place [organized], I want to arrange things or change the positions of the furniture because I am easily bored with the style or the arrangement of the furnitures inside the house. And I am in a state that I can't control this trait.
When we move our place to a house that is very different in size, honestly; I really don't want to move. But because of the situation that time, it is hard for me to accept it. I think I am the one who can't adjust easily. But we don't have a choice, we need to move. That's why I settled my mind, and say "it's ok, since my father can turn it in a good place". That's what I thought, that's what we thought. But everything turned upside down. My father passed away, not to mention, only have 2 days since we move to our new place. And because of that circumstances, ah everything inside my mind blown away. All I can think is, "I don't want to be in this place, I want to move to other place", I want to finish everything. I don't want in this kind of situation. And honestly, this thought still lingering on me. And I'm really struggling because of this.
I am easily irritated because of our situation. I know, it is not right but I can't help it. It's hard for me to overcome this trait of mine. Oh, I really need peace of mind, I need rest. I've heard and read what the scripture says in Romans 8:28 - "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are a called according to His purpose." Right now, I need the reality of HIS WORD.
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